Well here I am, world. I'm not supposed to be wrting this.
I've been doing some thinking/reading and, for those that know me, this can be dangerous. You'll figure out why later. But, for now, I've got some new ideas. Or, you could just call these observations instead.
1. I'm bored
2. I'm used to be awesome
These are generalities. But, I aim to turn these observations around.
In all honesty, I'm almost 27 years old, I do well professionally - far better than most (not bragging) - and I'm at that point where I need to start locking some shit down. I read recently an idea about four kinds of "self" - the kind that we personally remember, the kind that others remember, the future kind that people assume we'll be and, finally, the future self we envision - the one that doesn't exist yet.
Basically, three of these are bullshit and the only one that really matters is the future self that we personally envision. What we were in the past isn't worth shit and it goes without saying that what anybody else thinks about us (past or present) should have no influence on what we will be. The future self is where it's at.
So, what am I getting at? Well you're stupid for one - but I'm talking about MY future self. Here's what I think about that:
1. My future self is fucking awesome
That's it. On this blog I'm going to record my first year into getting there. Hopefully, I'll also get to the point where I learn a whole lot more about myself. I'm going to put some goals on here, track them, rant about things that bother me and explore whatever the fuck I want.
Anyways - here are some basic things that I want to do. The main ponit for now is to use my days more wisely, find more meaning to life outside of work and generally feel better/be happier.
1. Working out - I love CrossFit, but I'm nowhere near where I should be considering how long I've been doing it. Reasons being valid, we'll explore those in another post. My goal here is to get strong...real strong.
2. Get back into music - I thought for a large part of my youth that I was going to be a musician. I loved music and excelled at it. I was really fucking good at the guitar. Then, somehow, along the way...I lost that passion. I know it's in me somewhere...I want it back.
3. Read more - simply put...TV is fucking terrible. Reading is good.
4. Find time to do new, fun things with my GF every week. I love her and we need to make more memories together.
5. Worry about work less often (this could be me just not giving a fuck or finding something new)
5.5 Start writing (success!)
So, this is my first attempt. I don't care if anybody reads this. Just know you'll want to be me some day.
Hugs,
Kyle
